merry christmas

oh hi i've survived from 211212 hahaha
and it's christmas tomorrow :D
so it's like usual year ,me and my family went to send our prayers to my passed away aunt today :)
and after that, spent some quality time with my family, *lunch and movie :) *

it's going to end 2012, what a remarkable year for me. I am wishing a better year ahead to my families and frens :)

me of previous year and current year :) appearance may not looks different much but way of thinking i shall say it's much more different from back then for what i've been through this whole year. :)

wishing everybody a happy christmas eve and Merry christmas :)

i dunno what are you trying to prove.. but i know i'm about to have enough of all these nonsense..

my bloggie's custom: HAPPY BIRTHDAY JUNSU OPPA!!  Saranghaeyoo~~ :D

i should said that i have finally met the worst day from my whole pratical training period everything started to go wrong from morning to the night. there was one moment i  realluy feel like want to knock my head to the cupboard as i have had enough of the situation.  along all these days, i never cry for my works, but today i have hit my endurance limit that i burst out of tears after i try to vent out everything to my dad.  useless me, that's it.

We are back to December.

wave of memories hit whenever listen to their old albums, when they were still five.

six years of love

even though never see them in real live 

couldn't imagine this love can be extended til when

but i never forget how their songs help me to go through all the up and down moments

people judge us

people think fans like us silly 

but who care, they are that special in our own world =)

well, tomorrow is Monday again. zzZ

watched this back few days ago, just remind me those memories that created in my second year of uni life.
crazy :) but i will never do that again.. haha =) *我的大学生活因为大家而有了不一样的回忆* :D

proposal waiting for me to amend , but i really just clueless and motivationless to start.
even tho the procrastinate to guilt to headache to stress, i still find so no energy to do it.... ughh..

anyways, wishing a good week ahead! is already the forth week!

another new cycle for mama and me 
positive positive
一切很快都会过去 :):)

TGIF

HI.
This is the second week of my internship already. 18weeks left.. haha.. counting down everyday hope to end this working life faster. Maybe in the future i will going to miss this period but what in my head now is just hope to get back my study life. More carefree and stressfree. u know is very easy to trigger my little stress button at my back.. >,<
Just two weeks times and i already exposed to so many new things. Meet new faces almost everyday and attended few times of formal meetings. God knows i really feel myself as a sesame there. YES! a sesame! because everyone from there are all lai tou bu xiao! i really feel what i'd learnt from this two year at uni was just peanut. i swear i will definitely learn something after this whole experience. =) so leh, will still be appreciated my life now even tho i keep saying i want to end this faster! xp

my FYP still need to carry on by the way. ugh!

went back to UPM last week to meet up my fyp supervisor. Thanks god my topic was approved =)
back to my faculty made me feel like even more want to get back my study life !  NEVER MIND! 18weeks left only! hard to imagine the time when i graduate and start a real work life, where i got nothing to countdown anymore T_T. i will just work, work and work. NOOOOO...=O WO BU XIANG LEH!! maybe i really need to appreciate this internship since it's just temporary and make me realized that study life is the best!

HAO LA.  this post was just so contradicting and pointless. I KNOW RIGHT >..< just kinda need to vent out only.

苦中也要作乐 =/

u know i can be very stupid sometimes =/

笑笑. mehh

till then. xoxo 

现在真想说声 wat the fuck! 这样是不对的icyfong!

好不开朗我觉得我头脑坏去了 （┬＿┬）

end of summer

feel so warm to have received messages from some of my friends

telling me all the best and good luck to my internship =) thankiu thankiu

i feel a little bit of nervous plus insecure because i wonder what will be happened for us on the next half year

i hope it will be a great experience for me and all my coursemates 

頑張ります (^-^)v
hmmm....mentally count it as 20weeks instead of half of the year, because i mentally feel that it will end faster if i count it in this way..=P

日子久了，我都听了好多劝告哦...我也知道这样下去不妥， 也不是没有想要放弃的时候，但是每次在要放弃的时候，我又莫名其妙的坚持了下来...所以大家给的反应都是 : 你真的很蠢/傻...
\(╯-╰)/ 我知道啦

stubborn capricorn is sturbborn.

last week of holiday

face automatically turns pale everytime come to hospital... really dunno why =/

it's already the last week of holiday before i start my practical training.. when im in holiday, i complaint why time  pass so slow, but when came to this last week, every second was like speed up,time passed really fast

argh =/ gonna adapt a new life again... but when seeing all my friends worried about their accommodation, transport and etc during the last few weeks, i really feel myself so lucky... omg i want to cry liao God really BLESS me  T_T He really sent alot of ppl come to me and help me out....T.T thankiu.  i have became more tougher than i used to be.

last night i got dream about this man leh! haha =P

hao la hao la... Gotta continue my forever-dragging proposal now..stop here! =) 

♥

♥ ♥ ♥ Happy xiaobii is MEGA cute!! ^3^♥ ♥ ♥

♥ ♥ ♥ ahyi sayang sayang ♥ ♥ ♥

20082012

few words to describe yesterday short trip: hot, sweat, crowded, traffic jam, sataycelup, long que, hungry, and also happy lar.. =) ehee

sweat gao gao.. but take picture under the big sun will look more "chio",
no choice, continue snap snap snap xD

gonna continue my proposal for thesis already.. *headcrack* ='(

two songs in repeat mode, one english one chinese

english

chinese

*hen hao ting leh =))

see people so happy me also happy ah =D

每天都在妄想如果能回到什么事都没有发生过的之前就好，那时候比较开心比较活泼比较快乐.

because i am proud like tat...
nahhhh....i wish!  lower down my confidence level each time i drive out only..=/ gonna practice more..hmp

fishtail braid.
when i got nothing better to do in hospital. Braiding then camwhore =0=
i think it's nice and easy peasy (Y)

took from my instagram
well.
i must say i couldn't agree more. 
it might be the best self-comfort quote to myself. -,-

i got alot to talk. but sometimes i feel like myself have lost the ability to express out

so leh, suan le. v(=.=)v 

icefong can drive liao!

omg i so happy can?! hahahaha

the story is like this one, i actually ongoing my driving lesson secretly for few months already, without telling most of my friends. ehh except my family, i think not more than five of them knew only. because i am that kinda person who will get more panic if many ppl asking me my progress from time to time. i already so scared of driving before this, don't wish to get more panic. so 少少人知道就好 =D And also, i feel like want to surprise my friends mah. bacause i'd been asking:  ("so kaiping, do you get your driving license already?" or "so kaiping, when do you plan to get ur driving license?" or even worse, "aiya no need go to get ur driving license lar, find a boyfriend to fetch you can liao lo. =.=) this kinda classic questions for years... So eventually they know me so scare of driving already. Then i thought if i suddenly tell them i get my license dy, sure they will get surprise one!! =D HAHA
not able to tell them my 辛酸史 when having practical lessons also very ke lian you know!! T.T
sometimes so nervous and keep repeat the same mistakes had make me felt so frustrated that time.. but no choice!! i want to surprise them, 我忍! I CAN ENDURE ALL OF THIS BY MYSELF!! >,< wtf hahahahha!

and then today is the D-day lo!!  nervous to a point that my two hands felt so cold! gahhh, i even pray sincerely to God to bless me everything shunshunlili before i went out! and when the second i get to sit inside the car and start up the engine, you know that the feeling when adrenalin push up, fast heart-beating and all i only able to do was took many times of deep deep breathe!  tell myself you can do it! i want to pass by one time de lehhh!!! DON'T LET ME GET INTO THE SECOND TRIAL PLEASE,GOD!  I don't want to pay that extra money and i don't want to undergo the whole process again!

i was kinda messed up from the start probably because i still not familiar with that car so i kept sei fo =O !  but God blessed me because i slowly get used to this car's clutch and accelerator. =D even tho i stil sei fo for like 2 times. garrrhhh >,< nvr mind, this section sei fo was still allowable! so i finally made it to the 3points turn and everything went smooth! ahaha! gam dong gam dong!! ='D  then i faster calm down myself and wait for the next section which was the JALAN RAYA part!

GOD KNOWS i was failed in this part during the pre-test!  i wished for a kind and patience JPJ officer to sit beside me, but ended up the officer was so serious so i was like okay, you serious i  serious-er than you! checked all the things that i needed to check and then again took a deep deep breath before i start to move. GOD must be heard my prayers because weather was nice today, road surface okay furthermore not many vehicles on the road when i was driving! =D when i was practice many lorries passed by me one, luckily today no! Thanks GOD! so i drove slowly, gained back a bit confidence and hands no more cold then everything started goes smooth! only one time i stared at the backview mirror too long that my car already senget very much..! @.@ luckily i able to focus back when the officer spoke out "KENAPA NI?" ! pheww..

so the end was, i passed the test and finally i can hold a P license now!! muahahaha!! no let my parents down! no need to pay extra money and no need to see the uncle anymore! hahahaha! and then i finally can reveal my little secret to my besties! =D i thought they will sure surprise one but APPARENTLY NOT! Keep make fun of me only..really my bestfriends! Garhhhh!!!!!  >,< HAHAHAHA.. But at the end they still congrate me de larr~ BFF mahhh!! hahahhaha =D=D

A picture of me with zero make up the other day when hanging out with soyeewen =D 素颜lehh haha!

off to watch vamp diaries!

妈妈加油，女儿也加油 =)

胖了胖了我真的胖了 =‘(((

recent

hi

life still same, except i'm just getting more time to think about whatever that come across my mind. sometime might worry about i will left behind from what i actually wanted to do in the future, since my intern woks is completely different from what i expected. and then the next second i have to faster tell myself that i still got many chances after graduate so don't worry be happy! duhhh... sometime i might as well think of i should have arrange something that i'd only thought of in my dream or something i've never thinking before. yes, i am kinda figure out the idea already, i just need to plan it well and moving toward the target step by step. i can make it if i really wanted it so badly. everybody can make it why not me? don't want to limit myself anymore. life so short so gonna try out other different things if got chance.

randomly on the other day, i was lending a hand to my sis's friend's friend to do her company research . sitting in front of her and answered all the questions she asked.omg i just realized my uni life was so bored back then and i was a passive consumer and so many and that i think i contributed nothing useful information to her research haha. but she just a very nice girl that willing to listen all my opinion and make me felt like it was more like a chatting session than a interview one. few question she asked me and i was just realized that so many decision i'd made from past have made The today Me. seriously only i discovered so many factors have compiled together and linked me to this position . 很神奇 =)

so now i know what decision i make today will affect me in the future, even the very small decision will do its part. so it stronger my determination to carry out my decision for myself. and then the law of universe also stated mar, positive thinking/thought will attract positive things to come around! =) make me feel like more closer to my dream. 人有梦想总是好的嘛.. =) i want to make it real this time!

my current addiction... i know i'm late la hahaha... =)

that British accent of him is fascinating! hard to resist you know?! haha

so much love for him that my instagram account is full of his faces now! =D make me happy everytime i log in my account. why you so cute ahyi want to put you inside my pocket can?!!! lolololll *sayang sayang sayang <3<3!!

妈妈真伟大 =")

despite so many obstacles, i still hope that i can achieve what i have set for myself

wish me dreams come true.

daddy

真心觉得爸爸是个很厉害的人

ps: happy birthday 亲爱的朋友

不停来回医院 有时看到刚刚出世的宝宝 有时看到已经生病了的大人
才体验到生命很可贵 可是也很脆弱
才知道要活在当下 才知道要好好珍惜身边的人

getting harsh. sometimes i wish you were here :'(

200th =)

i back in one peace from genting. it's been quiet a time we hang out like this. 我也很久没有这么开心了 =)
Genting is like a totally different world to me. so full of colour, bubbles and smiley. like no sorrow things

cherish to our our precious memories

back in reality. living under uncertainty is harsh but, take a deep breathe. 

people said what doesn't kill you make you stronger.

Nostalgia

you know some songs really can help you to recall back memories!



coincidentally listened to this song on the way to the hospital this morning and it straight away brought me back to those memories when i'm still 8 or 9 years old :)
i'm 90s..used to listen to backstreet boys, westlife, N'sync, Britney Spears,spice girls and also The Corrs's music when i was small, which the stage of life you worry nothing and carefree :)
this song really inked me during my childhood moment :)
i especially like the violin part..i think it's the best part of the whole song. and i dunno why, it's really suitable to be listened in raining days. :)

we know life is not going to be easy all the time, but life is so awesome when you having a bunch of close friends to be with you :):) cheer for friendship!

#price tag

1.well.
people said things change,people change,everything changes but memories will stay. but part of my memories gone with the lost of my handwritten diary. No idea how one can be that stupid to lose her own diary. it disappeared like it got its own wings to fly away.

2.如果我能有爸爸三分之一的性格的话，我也许就能活得更轻松一些更潇洒一些了.=/

3.p.s to myself : make it worth it and "forget about the price tag!"

#payphone

sisters coming back. no need alone anymore :)

#golden arches. i'm lovin it

#portdickson. very good place.

#sea. stay peace. i'm not ready yet la san jie =/

#thebreadface. san jie..heh!

#sanjie. earlybird for arabica coffee

#Twinkle. lenglengyi got xiaobii in her hug :))

family day tomorrow :) weather please be good.

it just few days gone
but i feel like it'd been months
what a life
sometimes i feel pathetic if i get numb of it one day
i don't want that
must be something that i can do to make things better..but i couldn't find it :'(

big world to explore, waiting my turn to go to another side of the earth.

回忆里满足的旋律 ♥
ありがとう =)

#It's just the beginning

because i was born with baby fat like that =)

somebody once told me do not give up, the beginning always the hardest part.

life got real, get bold and fearless.

#imbored

seeing everybody so stress in settle down their internship problems. should i feel lucky to myself? few weeks before i doubt that but now, definitely yes. everyone around me treats me so well and helped me out whenever i ask for and concerned me about this and that..how nice of them..i didn't take everything for granted and sometime i wonder what can i do for them in order to let them know my grateful to them. #figureout.couldn't imagine what we will be like after another half of year.

#happy father's day

this year father's day
all my sisters are coming back home, except me, not be able to go back home and celebrate
='(

外公最好了 =)

慈母手中线，小B身上衣 =)

ahyi miss you like hell <3

i can haz poodle hair too =)

祝已经当了外公的爸爸，已经当了爸爸的姐夫 父亲节快乐 =)

ironic.
the strategic geographic location gives malaysia no natural disasters,stable weather and so rich in natural resources. but the self-fish human being here made it a no longer safety place to live.

190th post #0607 fongbaba's day

我刻苦耐劳
教会我待人处事的道理,最能影响我决定的爸爸今天生日
happy birthday :)
你要身体健康长命百岁.

=) 教会我很多又很好看的插画书

#jasonmraz- 93million miles

we just want to sweat to be relaxed

never thought it turned out an adventure for us

great tho. trained to be more brave

more strong and more brave, needed for the coming journey after tomorrow :)

#smile #nevergiveup 

幸せです ♥ 

ありがとう =)

life

时间真是过得很快很快
我又渡过了一个学期
这个学期我又学到了好多好多东西
拿到好多好多经验
希望以后出去工作可以学以致用
这个学期一直都很开心
但是就在我嚷嚷着好开心好幸福的时候
上帝就在生活中给了考验
要让我知道生活不能太顺遂
要有考验才叫人生
自己每晚睡觉前想了又想，一直想
想到我从无法接受直到面对现实
我不是基督徒
但是我相信有上帝
每一次我在想为什么为什么的时候
慢慢的我在身边的人和看到的事找到答案
我知道祂在透过这些人这是事来回答我的疑问
我最大的安慰
果然要亲身体验了才知道要好好珍惜，活在当下的真正意义
要做选择就代表一定要放弃某些东西，
但是还是时常告诉自己做人一定要乐观才行

不过分亲密，但总是能了解我并给与我最好的安慰的巨蟹们.  谢谢 =')